Tomorrow, the 13th of April 2006 is going to be my second attempt to get a driving license. You cannot begin to imagine how nervous, anxious and worried I am. Everytime I think about it, my heart starts to pound and my stomach starts feeling queasy.
You probably would have thought that since I have got experience under my belt I should be less anxious but it seems that I am more nervous than the last time. There are a million things that could go wrong and my driving standards fluctuate so much that there is no telling whether everything will go right or be shot to hell or not...
One thing though happened as I was worrying myself to death while I walked home tonight after tuition. Was walking along the long lonely road when at a road junction I saw Xinrong's father! I recognised him so I waved at his taxi but initially he didn't really recognise me so I thought I was mistakened so I stopped looking in his direction. It took a little while but Uncle eventually recognised me and called out to me. Unfortunately he was driving and about to turn right so he couldn't really speak to me. He only managed to tell me that Xinrong would be back tomorrow evening. It was really comical really, I was half worried yet half amused, we were trying to shout across to each other while he was preparing to turn right. It was really very qiao3 that I would have met him in this manner.
Was laughing at myself after actually. Uncle was trying to ask me where I was going initially but all I could get out was, "wo xian zai yao hui qu" when he likely was asking where exactly I was heading to, hahahaha.... All cos I'm so blur and flustered cos there wasn't really much time before he had to make the turn.
All the same, this accidental meeting really served to help me relax quite a bit. All of a sudden I forgot part of my anxiety, hopefully I can maintain relaxed and not be so uptight when driving tomorrow.
There's really no big trick to driving, the key is to keep calm and focus on all the points that I need to notice. If I place my focus on my nervousness I would be sure to lose focus on the things I need to take note of on the road and in that case not only will I not pass I might stand to endanger the life of my passenger.
I better sleep earlier tonight and pray for mediocre yet passable performance tomorrow.....