Just finished watching the American Idol Top 8 with Katrina. The last to sing was Adam Lambert and he sang an unfamiliar song call Mad World.
It was something I've never heard before and it certainly wasn't quite of the genre that I would normally listen to, but listening to Adam sing this song, somehow I felt the song. It reached out to me in a way few songs do.
Went mad seeking out the various versions of the song avail on Youtube and also found the lyrics. I listened to the many versions of the song again and again and I started to weep with no apparent reason. It took a bit but I finally realised why I was so fascinated and obsessed with the song. I connected with "Mad World" because of the lyrics.
I completely identified with the song and at some points in my life I have felt this way. Repeatedly.
Out of place, uncomfortable, miserable, I've experienced the morbid emotions of wishing I were dead and gone from this world.
At one stage I felt so unhappy and dissatisfied with my life that I wished I were dead every single fricking day.
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Mad World
All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kinda funny I find it kinda sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very mad world ... world Enlarge your world Mad world
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You want to know what the most crazy thing is?
Once in a while, I actually still feel this way...