2010 is an eventful year where I've seen a lot happening and learnt about work and life in general.
I've seen a lot of evil, heard a lot of evil, and consequently I believe I've said a lot of evil too.
There are still really a lot of things for me to learn for personal growth...
Forbearance, for one, is a virtue I need to cultivate in myself. I know I'm less impulsive compared to my school days but, perhaps it's really a very ingrained part of my character, I'm still prone to rush into things cause I'm too passionate about it.
It could be things pertaining to work cases, making a personal stand about values and principles, expressing an opinion etc etc. Guess the only thing I haven't rushed into is a relationship. ;p (Ironic and funny, cause people my age are all beginning to rush into embracing their love lives, while I pace, too leisurely, at the door of love...)
I should also learn that ideals of integrity and fairness can be obsolete to some people. Perhaps it's the education, I always thought such notions are universal. I've learnt a hard lesson that not all believe it's compulsory. Some might see it a necessary evil and some may see the absence of it as no big deal at all. It is a bitter pill to swallow for me and I'm still trying to swallow it...
I must learn to be quiet and just listen when my opinion is not required. Sometimes my advice and contribution on an issue matters to and is valued by others; other times what I say is really not important.
My bro told me that I'm a cynic at heart, so what I say comes out more negative than positive most of the time. While I don't fully agree, I have to say my advice can often be blunt, to the point, and too rational and pragmatic at times. (Another irony, haven't I been told that I'm silly and childish at some point?). So when in doubt I should err on the side of caution and keep mum...
Most important thing I need to learn to cope better with 2011 is to See no Evil, Hear no Evil and Speak no Evil.
No matter how upset I make myself I'll never be able to determine and control certain things in life. The only way out is to ignore such stuff and just focus and do what I need to do.
I sincerely hope 2011 is going to be a better year where things will go more smoothly. I need to learn to live more happily and give myself more purpose in life. Love myself so that I can give others more reason to love me too.
May 2011 be a better year for one and all and may all the regrets of the year end with the end of 2010...